.Friday, April 20, 2007 ' 1:50 AM l
It 1.49 am now still cant sleep. Seen like it been 2 weeks or so i had this feelings, every night laying on the bed unable to sleep. Switched my computer, listening to a midi tone name "falling" send by wei xian. Listen and listen, over and over again. The music just flow rounds my heart and mind. Viewed her profile, looking at her photos but the feelings just wont get off. Listening to this music again and again, my heart just keeping weaking and weaking. Trying to reveal my true feelings that hidden deep inside my heart. Felt like crying cried like a baby i once was, felt lonely so lonely really too lonely. I need you i really needs you. In my mind just thinking how will it be the best if i can just hold you close to me, have my arms around you hugging you. But this are just my thoughts... Wish to meet but you are just always busy. As busy as you does always, never give yourself a spared time to relax and rest, never gave yourself a time for me. Not even a time to had a talk on the phone. I wants to know you better, i wants to let you know more about me, i wants to give you the love and cares that i wants to give to the woman i love. But do i had that chance? How long can i remain calm and cool acting strong in the outside? How long can this relationship last? How long will that feelings stay inside me? I really had no idea and i dont even dare to wonder. Was LOVE the happinest things on earth? Or the more saddness things on earth? Minds are acting strange, thinking about the past as the this music goes, feeling foolish and regrets about it. Didnt treasure those times when they are around. Tears are dropping from my eyes, heart is feeling sorrows. What should i do? I had no ideas nor answers to that...
