Today went to work for a few hours because of a seriously stomach pain. It's not like i need to go toilet but it's more on vomiting the foods i ate at the staff canteen. Wei En dismissed me early and told me to go home but i went to the staff canteen to rest because i'm waiting for josephine to come and fetch me home. I suspect that the food in canteen were not clean at all, that why i had a serious stomach pain and made me vomit. Anyway after josephine came down to fetch me, we went to takeshimaya there to sit down and slack and i can rest. Seriously i dont felt right moving at all, was thinking about resting there and not move. Rested for an hour or so, she fetch me back home and now i felt better alot but then i still keep missing her. Guess we should really quiet down for the time being.

Haish so many things happening around and yet i'm so foolish to let anger took control of me again. I'm regretting a lot to say those words and asked those questions to you and even saying words that i shouldn't. I'm sure a failure. All i wants to say is wendy i'm very sorry about that night, i'm sorry about everything that happen that night, just wish you could forgive me. I choose to believe you all this while and i know i'm stupid to be affected by stupid words from him but i knew my mistakes. Haish~

Yesterday i learned something worth priceless from daphne. Thanks a lot daphne for your actions and doings. Love is selfish and a very complicated thing in the world but yet it's so wonderful. Loving a person doesnt mean must that person in fact you should give the person happiness. I'm ot gonna know what's gonna happen next in my life maybe something very happy or disappointed about but one thing for sure no matter what's gonna happen, my love for you is not gonna change even till the day the whole world was gonna abandoned you, claudius will always be there for you having a place for you inside my heart. As for the "you" i know you read my blog some times so dont misunderstand anything here because it all just for "you" and you should know who you are.

Missing the girl you love and unable to see her wasn't the most hurting feeling to bear. In fact missing the your brothers who have been your best friends for years, been always by your side no matter what. They will the ones who were with me whenever my heart is bleeding and tears are rolling down. To all my GayBrothers, i really miss you guys a lot , WeiXian & SweeMing both of you better take care inside camp and come out one piece dont die on me. As for WenHui i gotten the news of what happen to you, let this be a lesson to you alright dont make the same mistake again in your life, Kor Kor are still here for you so as the rest of the GayBrothers.

Hmm found out one thing about the readers in my blog. They tend to read my blog and next leave without tagging instead they will rather sms me or call me to ask what happen or even leave a offline message in my msn. Nowadays readers are so strange and cute in a way. . . Nowadays i been crazy about jay chou and boys like girls songs. My birthday is coming soon and this year im really excitied about it since wendy had a suprise for me. I hope my wishes do really come true. My love will you spend your day with me on my b'dae?

Opps i forgot something very important~!!! Hope it's not too late. I, claudius ching here by as a Gay Brothers and behalf of the others GayBrothers who was in army now congrats Lim SeokYee and Andy upon their marriage~! Last forever and happiness alright never give up on each other hor~~!!! To view the photos please go to this website : http://www.shani-loves-andy.blogspot.com/

Loads if things happening this few days. Like about yesterday, meet up with my friends at bt batok and went to slack. Halfway slacking, Simon was been grabbed at the arm by a uncle who i suspect is drunk at block 106. Simon keep asking him to let go in a kind way but the uncle insisted his a C.I.D and not wanting to let go. When the uncle let go of Simon when Edmund and XinXun walks towards them after that arguement were created. We was scolding and shouting back at the uncle when he insulted us and trying to pick a fight with Simon. Next we went off from Blk106 and spitted into two groups, the 1st group was to get out of it while the other group walk around the block to check whether if that uncle is following us or not. And that was when Simon and i was about to face one of the most dangerous problem. Simon and i was the second group who were suppose to walk around and check, 10mins passed as we sperated from the 1st group and that is when we saw that uncle agian but this time he's not emtpy handed. He was holding a weapon which looks like a sword to me rushing towards simon, trying to attack him. At that point of time i was trying to attack him too but then i cant just attack him recklessly as he was holding a sword. Got no other choice but to save simon from being attack and next it's my turn to be attack. Managed to dodge his attacks and next he ran off when simon shouted "Wah bring weapon ar, claud call people come now!" So i followed him and provoking him to delay the time as simon had phone the police. Too bad i failed, he hired a taxi and ran off. Next moments the police arrived and we was been questioned, was telling and explaining to the police about the matter. We found a car at the roadside which is quite near the location we were been attack, and we suspect it was the attacker's car. We told the police everything we know and suspect just then a lady and a middle-age man who were son and daughter of the "attacker" came towards the police and said she's the owner of the car. Now things gotten a bit out of hand, the lady insisted of charging us and she insisted that she heard diff story from father about what we told the police. So the policemans told her to call her father down to settle this matter but then the father who me and my friends suspect is the attacker said he is inside the taxi going to JB now and he didnt encounter us neither. Strange was if he didnt encounter us then how does his daughter know that we was been attacked and the whole story? The police got no other choice but to put this case under investication and all of us been send home.

Right now is raining heavily. Went for a very hot bath and was crying inside. Now i believe that i'm really stress up. Really very stress up, all i wish was to relax but i cant. Can any kind soul tell me what to do? Could any kind soul give me a helping hand?

Haish once again i'm stuck with relationship problems again. What's is wrong with you, why did you have to be so cold to me whenever we are one step closer to each other. I read your blog just now and i saw the post of someone told you something and you answered "18 may 2009 is not an auspicious day – YET!". What is the meaning of this? I dont get any meanings at all. But what i was thinking in my mind was negative thoughts full of negative thoughts. You told me all about your past that night at bukit timah and you said it will ruin the perfect image i had for you. BUT let me tell you no matter what it's not gonna ruin the perfect image i had for you because it's all your past. But then is there meaning to say this? Was i too late for it? Guess i have to sort things out right now as soon as possible. Maybe it's ture that i could never be able to replace ian in your heart.

Right now is 4.39am in the morning 0.o why am i not asleep? Because im not at home ^^ at where? Somewhere in timah at her house. What brings me to my blog back again? Actually i have no ideas at all just have a strong feelings of returning after reading my past posts in my blog. It's raining outside now and kinda felt like sleeping but just cant sleep afterall im leaving her house at 5am so what's the point of sleeping? Life for me this pass few months was alright i guess? Learn to be more mature and more control of my feelings no matter is anger or saddness i had learn to be strong than last time. Maybe because of a long relationship with sooyi last year mades me realised a lot of things and the truth of my bro weixian who i always look up when im down and throw all my saddness and tears had went in army. This year met a girl and now im at her house too, things between me and her contains loads of problems. Too much conflicts that i really have to stand strong to be able to solve it and at the same time protect her too. Seriously felt really comfortable being with her, this feelings was very diff from what i used to had in a relationship. As long as i can explain to the simple forms was she make me felt so in love and comfortable being who i am. But then there are somethings happening between us right now. Wishing to ask her but at the same time afraid of losing her or losing my cool. Guess writing down inside her notebook hinting her might be a good ways? Times is running short i guess? Army is waiting for me and the date i set to tell her everything is drawing nears too. Hopefully everythings go smooth between the both of us and solve the problems as soon as possible. After all it's up to her to reveal the truth to me, too much hiding that created my suspects...

Name: Claudius
Age: 18+
1St CRY: 06/06/1990
Horoscope: Gemini
School: Ex-Lian Hua Pri, Ex-Yusof Sec, Ex-ITE WEST(Bukit Batok, YMCa(Private School)
Hobbies: Singing, Bball, Computer, Going Out & EMO-ING
Fav Colours: Sky Blue, White & Black
Msn/Hotmail: claudius_999@hotmail.com
About Me: I'm Crazy & Emo. Love to Jokes and cheer people up.

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