.Wednesday, November 28, 2007 ' 10:02 PM l
Hmmm just now daphne intro me a job as a saleman at vivocity. Hmmmm tomorrow i'm going for an interview give myself a try ^^ Today feeling a lot better liao V^^V So sianz guess playing time is over now had to start working liao if not no money to buy clothes for New Year ^^
.Tuesday, November 27, 2007 ' 8:17 PM l
Hais sianz feelings so lonely. I kinda feeling lost and clueless. What's happening to me? Today woke up around and went to Bukit Batok CC derh Bball court. My temper was very bad, was giving anyone attitude. What the fuck is happening to me? Guess no matter how good a person temper is, when he's sad his temper really is very bad. Had a short chat with Ping at CC coffeeshop, she asked me why my temper very bad today. Told what happen to my relationship and she asked me do i still love her? I answered yes of cuz then she told me then ask her patch then but Han Yi said if i really love her i should let her go and find someone she love. Hais things are getting more and more confused. She's at aust now wondering how's her life at there? Anyway i'm planning to M.I.A for the time being so if anyone wanna find me contact my hp no. I might or might not answer your call or reply your message. Sorry about it but still i will go on blogging. . .
. ' 4:34 PM l
Yesterday spend the whole night thinking and thinking. Even asked nicholas out to give me some advises. Guess i'm at fault too, she was my stead and yet i didnt trust her. So many questions in my mind. What should i do? Can anyone tell me? Even if someone told me what to do, will i follow? I wanna ask her for patch but i'm scared she will still faded feelings for me. Friends around been trying to consuell me, some of them asked me to ask her for patch and not to think so much. While some just said go out and have fun 1st play around and flirt around 1st. Hais playing or flirtinng around? Never cross my mind before. . . Everynight when i slept i always dream about her, felt happy to see her by my side. My face will show a smile and very happy smile but when i woke up and look around. Everything was jsut a DREAM. My smile faded away and a saddness face was reveal. Hais don't think i wil be able to forget her easily even if i got a new stead i believe somewhere deep inside my heart there is still a space for her and missing her.
.Monday, November 26, 2007 ' 8:00 PM l
Today woke up around 3pm. Having a very strange and uneasy feelings. Really not used it now, without her calling me when i was sleeping, not having asking me where am i, what im doing. Started to miss her a lot. Memories of us together keeps on appearing in my mind. Images of her hugging me telling me im gonna be fine in my room when i just discharge from hospital. I just cant forget her. In the past had many girlfriends, everytime we break up i just felt sad but after a while im fine. But her the first time i ever experience so much love from my girlfriend, so much care and happiness but all this was gone, gone forever. She's a girl that was able to make me felt she's like a gem in my eyes. She's like a wonders. She's the only giirl i loved that much and she's also the girl that hurts me the most. Usually i dont fight for my girl but she, i fought for her till the end the very end. I have no regrets of having her as my girlfriend but i'm happy every happy. If time will every past back i hope we can start anew together again.
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. ' 7:43 PM l
This post is about yesterday 25th Nov. Today morning woke up during the afternoon and play dota and maple until 5.30pm. Then went to bath and dress up and went to Yee Tee to fetch Dear back to school. Tonight she's gonna fly to aust for her school NPCC event. Went to one of the block near her school and sat down. Chatting about the past how we first met, how i get to hug her when we will young. Chat a lot about our past, having her accompany by my side in the nice quiet night before she went in to her school was great. After that went to nicholas's house intend to have my dinner there, out of the blue Dear called me and said she forgot to bring her cap. So borrow one of nicholas's fav cap and went out. Missed the bus that can stop somewhere near the school, so i ran from nicholas's house to Yuosf Ishak Secondary School. Since she told me she will depart from school at 9.30pm and i had only 15mins left but still i manage to reach her on time. On my way back to nicholas's house my body suddenly felt pain sharp pain made me some times unable to move. After that went back to nicholas house and had my dinner again. Then chat with Dear, she faded feelings for me, after so much we had it's all done in a day. I asked for break up since she keep faded feelings for me guess im not a good boyfriend that can made her stay by my side hais. After that went to 7-11 with nicholas to met qin quan kor, andy di and vicent. Hais my pain grew more and more pain. My heart was more painful compare to the pain in my body. Hais
. ' 6:43 PM l
Hmmm guess been a month plus didnt blog. This post is about 24th Nov. Today Dear coming from camp and will be reaching in school at 2pm. Went to the coffeeshop outside her school to fetch and happen to saw her friends. They told me that dear had fall sick in camp and was resting at the sickbay for the whole day. When i saw her, she became more thin than she was. Looking at her like this my heart felt hurts. After fetch her home and i went to bukit batok cc bball court to play bball with my friends. We played total of 3 match, 2 match of 5 vs 5 half court and 1 match of 5 vs 5 full court. Suddenly joey called me and asked me am i in bukit batok and said she wanna meet me. After we went to slack at block 620 30th floor. We took some photos and after that we went to Lot 1 to take Neoprints and after went home. Had dinner with my parents and uncle at our hometown at RedHill Market. I was the 1st to finish my dinner and i went to slack at the playground that i always go and message Dear some stuffs. Hais guess all the answers only made me disappointed. After that dont felt well and went home to rest. My whole body felt very uneasy. . .
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