.Monday, July 23, 2007 ' 5:19 PM l
Ahhhhh ~ !!!! siianz gotten the army letter liiao. How? What should i do? Sign on for army or go on my studies first? If i sign on for army, i'm gonna spend 2 years in it, how will she been outside? when i finish army how will i be able to look or a job with my current studies? If i go on studies first i really had to work very hard. Since my dreams was to be a policeman or C.I.D but what happen if i failed to get good results for my O levels? Ahhhhhhhhhhh going crazy now. . . I'm starting to lose confidents in myself, starting to back out of it. . . Few days ago i asked her if i will to sign on for army will she wait for me? She gave a very good answer telling me that future cannot be predict, knowing the answer mades felt a bit relax at least not a No or a Yes. . . Been slacking too much in my studies felt like quitting school. Where was the spirit of wanting to study non stop, looking for more knowledges? Where is the spirit i had when i was in secondary school(gov sch)? Why am i feeling backing out? Why is my mind been thinking about earning moneys? What's gonna happen to my future? Hais right now i'm still thinking and thinking. . .
