.Wednesday, May 06, 2009 ' 4:39 AM l
Right now is 4.39am in the morning 0.o why am i not asleep? Because im not at home ^^ at where? Somewhere in timah at her house. What brings me to my blog back again? Actually i have no ideas at all just have a strong feelings of returning after reading my past posts in my blog. It's raining outside now and kinda felt like sleeping but just cant sleep afterall im leaving her house at 5am so what's the point of sleeping? Life for me this pass few months was alright i guess? Learn to be more mature and more control of my feelings no matter is anger or saddness i had learn to be strong than last time. Maybe because of a long relationship with sooyi last year mades me realised a lot of things and the truth of my bro weixian who i always look up when im down and throw all my saddness and tears had went in army. This year met a girl and now im at her house too, things between me and her contains loads of problems. Too much conflicts that i really have to stand strong to be able to solve it and at the same time protect her too. Seriously felt really comfortable being with her, this feelings was very diff from what i used to had in a relationship. As long as i can explain to the simple forms was she make me felt so in love and comfortable being who i am. But then there are somethings happening between us right now. Wishing to ask her but at the same time afraid of losing her or losing my cool. Guess writing down inside her notebook hinting her might be a good ways? Times is running short i guess? Army is waiting for me and the date i set to tell her everything is drawing nears too. Hopefully everythings go smooth between the both of us and solve the problems as soon as possible. After all it's up to her to reveal the truth to me, too much hiding that created my suspects...
